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Sunday, July 20, 2008

No school for me tomorrow......

Let me start with yesterday. I was at home thoughout the day until about evening time then i went over to my grandmother place for gathering before heading down to SGH to visit my the other grandma. Nothing much on the gathering beside seeing all the uncle and auntie as well as cousins. We didnt stay long and left after dinner.

We were just being informed that she is hospitalise about yesterday evening as she is not feeling well because of her stomach so my auntie send her down to SGH A & E in the afternoon but nobody inform us anything about that until evening when she is being admitted to the ward. When i heard that i was like kind of like pissed off because i was at home home for the entire day which im free and nobody call for my assistance where everytime im the one who attended to all this stuff. I was rather worried about my grandma so i get kind of like anxious and the moment we reach SGH i was like walking rather fast up to the ward to see her. When i reach there, the doctor is conducting a check up for her and we were waiting outside. Finally the check up is done and we can see her after the doctor tell me, "Please give us 5 mins, we are checking on her medical history" where they took more than that. The moment i saw her she is rather weak but still able to speak and i started asking her how is she and stuff. I went down today again to visit her and she look so much better than yesterday and im really relieve to see that. I also went to check with the nurse just now when i was there about her conditon and they even told me her condition is fine so i guess everything is going to be all right for her.

My dearest DADDY went to kedah with his friend this morning and will only be coming back on tueday so the house now only left with the only MAN which is me of course. HAHA~~ We went out with auntie jessie today to my dad cousin salon to do up our hair. What most important here is that i have finally got my hair dyed once again but this time is only like highlight. The colour this time is different from the previous time and i dont know what colour it is called but never mind. Actually i quite like the colour and it makes not much difference when it is highlighted or do up the whole hair and that is only a personal opinion. =X

I wont be going to school tomorrow as there is things for me to settle. I need to go down to Bedok Police Divisional HQ tomorrow morning to do up a statement regarding the case that time, after that go and visit my grandma and 3.15pm i will be going to take me Basic Theory Test and i really hope can pass well tomorrow. *GOD BLESS* At the same time i also hope that there wont be any harmony works meeting tomorrow as i need to go so many places.

It has been a while after the break up and life still has to go on a usual. I mean till now i still cant deny the fact that i do miss her but there is nothing i can do seriously. The only thing i can hope is that she is doing well and happy with her current life as well as the person she is in love with. Most importantly is that there is no longer hatred or what so ever thing exist already and I really sincerely hope that she is happy and lead her life good.
I can see that you are happy with what you are now and it is a right choice for you to leave me as it will be a better choice for you. Perhaps this should have happen earlier so that it can end your suffering somehow but never mind, everything is over. But of course if i can turn back the time or let me know before hand that it will end up like this, I will still be making the same decision to get back with you and now i have never regretted being with you. The only thing that i regretted was, why i cant make this relationship a better one so that we wont end up like this. I have kept this in my heart for a while and i only write it out here today because i hope i can feel better after this.

IF IT'S MEANT TO BE, IT'S MEANT TO BE.